By Pavel Konoplenko
It’s been over two months since I last wrote a blog post. It’s not because I was lazy or had no material. On the contrary, it’s the opposite of that (although that may simply be something I tell myself to feel better).
I have been writing content almost daily, and have copious amounts of drafts at the ready. Yet every time I sit down to publish something, I wind up deciding to write and publish something new, and something better. This plan is almost fool-proof except that I never actually get around to publishing it.
Sometimes I think the best solution to publish is to stop worrying about perfecting the draft, and simply get it out there. After all, it’s better to have a post with a few minor mistakes than no post with zero mistakes. With time and habituation, I’ll be able to publish drafts without giving myself extensions.
Another problem is that I attempt to write about ideas that I find deep, complex, and interesting. Every time I wind up writing, I find myself wanting to write more in-depth, thinking that the original draft was only scratching the surface. This leads to a never-ending pursuit of ideas, akin to a rant than a coherent post.
Sometimes I simply want to write about a different topic. I like the creative challenge of having to come up with something new on the spot as I sit down. I wind up ignoring the drafts I already have and write two more drafts that probably won’t ever be looked at by me for a while.
I excuse this behavior in myself and fail to have the self-discipline needed to make this a habit. Fortunately, failure is never final nor fatal. Explaining away the behavior won’t correct it. Making excuses won’t get my writing published. The only thing that can work is time, effort, and focus.
I truly enjoy writing; I enjoy the creative flair necessary, the mental exercise, and the streamline of thoughts and ideas that I experience when I write. I enjoy feeling the tinge of pride looking back at a published post. I have to remind myself of these things and push forward. Every day is a new chance for me; not only for writing but for new experiences, thoughts, and ideas. I just have to stop being reluctant to capture them.
P.S. Although in my defense I haven’t exactly been doing zero writing. I have been writing for my company blog that we recently launched, and have been contributing posts to my side project, The Culture LP.